Monday, 18 October 2010
hello world.
its recess week. the sat and suns are hecticly packed with leisure.
weather's very hot and hazy these 2 days, pretty unbearable, dosen feel healthy.
sat was good, spent going to town to collect race pack, buy beans, go ikea buy jar, queenstown buy bag. all these alone. solitude is best at times.
sun go eat dimsum in afternoon, then go yanjun party at nite. =D
and battled this big xiaoqiang in the kitchen. 3doses of baygon on it, i watch it twitch and curl.
but when i went back 2hours later, its gone!! i hope they dont take revenge, im paranoid bout its dissappearance.
and all that mundane stuffs.
then at nite, i was pretty shocked, that alot of things were not real. naive me, haha.
then it was about mocking people.
and i recall, how pri sch, i used to laugh with other ppl about this girl with bugs bitten and scarred leg. saying she got AIDS.
and this sec sch plump girl, that again we always make fun of.
the 1st is doing fine now, met her some months back.
the 2nd one aint that good.
the last i met her, on the bus, some years back, she wore revealing clothes, somewhat like ah lian, or more sad to say, maybe some hostess in some clubs.
and kindda regret, i blame myself, that i might be part of the symphony that paves her path to what it is today.
i was one of those she trusted and opened up more, to talk to.
she felt tat i was approachable, at least im not like others. She was pretty wrong.
she told me about her broken family, the peers mockery, her sad life.
she had a kind heart.
but i started to distant myself from her, becuz of my fucking pride and image. tongues wiggle u see.
then she quitted sch. never heard from her again, until few years later that i met her on the bus.
and i think, if only i was more mature back then, and stood up for her, talk to her.
maybe she wouldnt be what she is today.
thinking back, this is one of the regrets i ever had in my life.
and its this pain of others, that makes me grow.
and it's what that shape my character today
how i treat others, and how i am morally justifiable to myself.
partly thanks to her. i see a better person in me.
otherwise, ill prolly be as insensitive as i was back then.
and i think heaven is fair, to make me fat when im young, and only grant me some selfconsciousness about my looks from jc onwards. i think its all karma.
I do hope she's doing fine now.
ciaos.
and battled this big xiaoqiang in the kitchen. 3doses of baygon on it, i watch it twitch and curl.
but when i went back 2hours later, its gone!! i hope they dont take revenge, im paranoid bout its dissappearance.
and all that mundane stuffs.
then at nite, i was pretty shocked, that alot of things were not real. naive me, haha.
then it was about mocking people.
and i recall, how pri sch, i used to laugh with other ppl about this girl with bugs bitten and scarred leg. saying she got AIDS.
and this sec sch plump girl, that again we always make fun of.
the 1st is doing fine now, met her some months back.
the 2nd one aint that good.
the last i met her, on the bus, some years back, she wore revealing clothes, somewhat like ah lian, or more sad to say, maybe some hostess in some clubs.
and kindda regret, i blame myself, that i might be part of the symphony that paves her path to what it is today.
i was one of those she trusted and opened up more, to talk to.
she felt tat i was approachable, at least im not like others. She was pretty wrong.
she told me about her broken family, the peers mockery, her sad life.
she had a kind heart.
but i started to distant myself from her, becuz of my fucking pride and image. tongues wiggle u see.
then she quitted sch. never heard from her again, until few years later that i met her on the bus.
and i think, if only i was more mature back then, and stood up for her, talk to her.
maybe she wouldnt be what she is today.
thinking back, this is one of the regrets i ever had in my life.
and its this pain of others, that makes me grow.
and it's what that shape my character today
how i treat others, and how i am morally justifiable to myself.
partly thanks to her. i see a better person in me.
otherwise, ill prolly be as insensitive as i was back then.
and i think heaven is fair, to make me fat when im young, and only grant me some selfconsciousness about my looks from jc onwards. i think its all karma.
I do hope she's doing fine now.
ciaos.