the pre-exams symptoms are back to haunt me, just like every half a year.

life is like a rollercoasters of ups and downs.
my ride have just hit the rockbottom railways, sailing endlessly past what seems like 4weeks behind and prolly 6 weeks ahead too.
the bangkok getaway was good, but the aftermath was a pileload of work for me.
FML.

nowadays my mood are like low low low (flo rida). and small little things irritate me.
like......if ure trying to joke about, correct me, point out my every little flaws that i might have, please dont.
ill prolly give u annoyed look, or just "orh".


and so i think, i can list down 10 or more good reason why i feel all-time low nowadays.
1. my school work are lagging behind, and im lost in lectures.
2. the last 4 quizzes and tests make me feel stupid, though i study hard.
3. i have a growing black scar on my face, this is really sianzification beyond.
4. i haven been jogging and exercising that much as i promised myself to.
5. ive been skipping my tkd lessons due to tests and shits.
6. money is of a big issue here. I feel broke.
7. i entwined by love web. I wish i had never let her go. and now im too afraid to embrace her once again, for fear of hurting her once more. Once is enough.
8. ive found out my worse bad habit bout me, "say say dun need pay". and im not seeing much changes to it. pissed.
9. i think i needa behave more maturely.
10. exams are coming.
11. workloads. 24 hours a day is not enough.
12. i have low self esteem, i have low self esteem, i have low self esteem. LOL.
13. im kindda getting insensitive. in other words, fucked up.




that explains me anti-socialilty and anal attitude nowadays. no offence, i just wanna say im sorry if i ever make u all felt bad, though nobody will read this blog except me. haha..
owells, at least i feel better writing my bads down. its a process of self-discovery.

and on the other hand, there was a HTHT session going on last nite.
bout here. she seems to be on ice-brink relationship as of lately.
their problem hve been there from the start and is still persisting.
there will be a chance that she'll be single soon.
and about this other guy, who seems to be interested in her.
owells.
i haven got a chance to let her know.
i dunno, its like my dying torch got rekindled. but...


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had a hiphop lesson yest. I not really good, it was enjoyable. sweat it out.
and the chatting session yest nite was great. like the good old times.
life was much simpler then.
supposed to go supper with zhengxiang, but i ps-ed him for being held up in hall.
nvm, 习惯就好。

yup, tats bout all for now. gonna take a little nap. before lessons soon.

Heal my hurting soul.